I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, and I am actually talking to myself, that is, literally talking to myself. I may sound like a total crazy person but really, I do this often that I am actually sometimes confused if I am crazy or not, or if i am having a psychological disorder, or if there is something wrong in my mind. But anyway, yeah, I have been thinking about my present relationship with my husband, and I must say, our relationship, with 3 years on the latest count, has been quite fair. I mean, like, we are actually starting and yeah you can say fresh in this world of marriage. We had bumps and even mountains along the way, but gladly, we overcame all of it. I remembered last year, just before our 2nd anniversary, I found out something which almost caused me to actually breakdown, we had a really huge bump on our relationship, but fortunately, we handled it. Also just a few weeks ago, he got me hurt again by a text that is meant to be sent to another person, but unfortunately sending it to me. I was hurt by the content of the message but it is not actually directly saying that he is having an affair, but after reading that, I must say, honestly, I actually thought he did (but thank God he didn’t..). He called me immediately after realizing that he sent me the wrong text, and there I was, awakened by the call, I read the text first, and I was already crying while talking to him. Imagine that, I just opened my eyes, and there’s this text right in front of me. How can I even have a good day with that situation? Great isn’t it? just great. So we talked, which actually took 2 days, and by the way, we are world’s apart, we only talk via skype. I’m here abroad, and he’s back home. 

I think communication is really important in a relationship. Talking about what is wrong is really essential. We all have differences, but it is what makes us unique, we have to accept that. 

And i learned also that, secrets are not the ones that ruins the relationship, suspicion does.

this post is based on my observations, and sometimes i really do find it funny.

ok let me start off with that “what’s on your mind?” thingyy. people put whatever they are doing at the moment, sometimes their thoughts, or just plainly whatever came into their minds. but here is the thing, they post it, then they’d be the first one to like it, then the most asdshfgdkghs thing, they will be the first one to comment. oookkkkaaaayyyyyy..

then there’s this status. yesterday, they are in a relationship, then today, its complicated, the next day, married, then single. homaygad, can you make up your mind?

then, the tagging of pictures. when you click the tag button, there is a note there that says “click on people’s faces to tag them”, so if that picture was your SOLO pic, why the ashgdfksfh tag a whole community on your face? to see how effin gorgeous you are? okkkkaaayyy.. funneehh

and the comments section. people make a comment on this then another makes a comment, then the first one will say hi, then the other replies, another one joins in, and voila, the comments box became a chat box. (this, i am guilty, hahahah)

seriously facebook, you are draining my brain.

i am all alone in our room, my other room mate went to Dammam with her friends, my other roommate is on duty..

what can i do at times like this.. i am so bored, but i am lazy to get up..

so we can all live in peace..

lol

my stuff..

1. my Acer Aspire 4736Z laptop..

yup, and i dont own a macbook..im poor.. XD

2. my Nokia 6120c..

i love its camera, its 2 megapixel only but it takes good shots and a very good video too..

3. my cd’s..

i love burning songs and movies which i have downloaded, so to save my laptop’s memory..

4. my Samsung S630 digicam..

6 megapixels, large LCD, nice shots..

5. Hitachi External hard drive..

actually this is not mine, my friend lend it to me, because she has lots of movies in it..

6. my Transcend flashdrive..

where i store some pics and music from the philippines..

7. my iPod touch..

my husband gave it to me..aww, sweet..

8. my Samsung C5212

my husband also sent it to me with the iPod, and Globe roaming simcard, its a dual-sim fone, so i can use both my smart and globe simcards..apparently we had problems with the other network before so he figured he will just send me another sim.. ( a family friend went for a vacation in the philippines and my husband asked him a favor if he can send these things to me when he comes back here in riyadh, if you may ask how he send these stuff to me…)

9. my Motorola EM30..

my music phone, always either battery low or empty because i abuse it’s music player..haha..but since i got my ipod and the samsung dual-im, it’s just on my closet now..

so there..just felt like posting..

i opened my friendster account (yeah, friendster!), i dont know, i just had the urge..haha..then i browsed through my comments and testimonials page..

god, while i was reading those testimonials from my friends, i cant help but get teary-eyed.. i miss them..

*sigh* time flies, and i just realized, my life back then was easier..

so now my ears hurt and are red.. just because my headphones are broken again..that was my second broken headphone already.. jeez!

but i chose not to greet that person anymore.. why? because of her girlfriend who was bitter to me back in the philippines, certain reasons.. i just dont want her to see my post greeting her boyfriend, even though her bf is a friend of mine..

and yeah, im bitter too..

so that makes it equal.

i was a member of our youth choir back in high school.. i was on the alto group..

that’s why sometimes i find myself listening and singing the second voice of the song..

:)) 

im having hot oil right now..its my day off, so i was able to use the hot oil that jill and i bought finally!

and right nnow im cooking chicken adobo..

imma rinse my hair after i cook!

:))

i was doing some backreading then i saw this on Recommended Blogs on the right side of the screen..

i thought they were the same person..almost the same username..

0_o

we all have.. and its annoying isnt it? but then you wouldnt end up to where you are now if you chose another right? if that choice made you happy, why regret?

but everytime i open it, i cross almost all my fingers not to find anything that will bring out all the fury in me..hahaha

because it already happened before.. and God knows how much i wanted to ride a plane that instant and crush that girl’s face, cut her into pieces, burn her, and throw her ashes in the deepest of hell! 

and as for him, i would just leave him, that easy, i will leave him without anything, i will take our daughter with me, and i swear to God he will never ever find us.. so just try one more sir, and you will find what your looking for.

grrrr..